Short answer is no. I have a few children. Although I tell them and their mother I love them, I am not capable of those feelings. I was raised by a narcissist and a psychopath (one of each). I had no interest in another human unless I needed something from them. I learned young how to control my narcissistic mother and got anything I wanted from her. My father was more difficult to control until I relieved him of his Alpha status. At that point was when I met my wife. I was currently flying high on becoming the family “Alpha” and felt pleased with the fact that he was a shell of the man he was previously. That was when I saw her for the first time. It gave me a sense of excitement just to look at her after that. She and I dated and I decided I wanted her to be mine. I decided I did not want to be my parents, so I confessed all of my sins to my wife, if she ran away, she ran away. She was shocked and confused about our scenario. She decided to stay with me and teach me to hide a little bit better. Until that point I learned how to portray emotions from tv and books so my emotional reaction was over the top acting. Skip ahead and we have our first child. She was handed to me and I felt a fierce desire to protect this innocent being, and what I can only assume is fear of failing to do so. My experience is different to most because my father never hid his ASPD which led to severe beatings as a child who failed to make him look amazing. I swore no one would do that to me after that, and I would never do that to another. I give my children everything they need to succeed, and only have three rules in my house…
1) Do not ever lie to me.
2) Do not ever strike your mother.
3) Do not let your emotions control you.
As anyone on the ASPD spectrum will know, lying is the biggest offense you can commit against us. Shocking I know, because we “always” tell the truth. Hitting their mother is because there was a likely hood I would breed psychopaths and I do not want to push them into sociopathy. The emotions rule stems from the fact that anger is our strongest emotion and the only one that can definitively give a psychopath away. They are raised to never be a victim and given every tool to be successful. Though I don’t “love” them as “normies” love, they won’t know that until they realize what they are. I have two I know are like me and one that I am pretty concerned about. They will be taught how to hide and control their gifts, as well as how to spot others like them and how to destroy them. No better rush than bullying the bully. (Making a Beta, pretending to be Alpha, cower is amazing and something I look to achieve everywhere I go, even Walmart. I attack abusers and narcissists with a vengeance because it satisfies me, not because I care about the victims.)
Incase any of you are curious, my relationship with my wife works because I do not mask myself with her, and I do not lie to her. She knows all my “evil” and has even called upon it at times. She also trains me on emotions and corrects my “feelings” when I misrepresent what i should be feeling. She is my partner and I know her loyalty is great. If she betrayed me she would be removed from my life in an instant. That is the only till that she must follow to stay in my life. Loyalty and honesty above all else. I do not mean infidelity either, unless it was with someone I view as an enemy. Otherwise I do not care about that kind of stuff, as long as she is honest about it. I have become very good at blending in, therefore I must answer anonymously so I can keep up my ruse.
No, I do not "love" my children... but they certainly believe that I do. I view my children as possessions. This is going to "sound awful," but I view them as pets/dolls of sorts. They are mine to train, teach, and mold.
1. I told them what to do, and they did it. Period.
2. I answered their questions, but they knew to ask them in private (not in public). I generally did not lie when answering these questions...
--- (ie: They ask, "Where do babies come from?" I have the sex talk with them [my daughter was 5 when she first asked this and my son was 8 the first time he asked]. However, if they were to ask, "Mum, do you love us?" I would of course, say something along the lines of, "With all my heart!" because I recognized that they have feelings and I do not and I want my "pets" to be happy and content. I have no wish to do them emotional harm.)
3. They were never permitted to believe in Santa, the Easter Bunny, the Tooth Fairy, or any other such nonsense.
4. They began learning meditation and yoga when they were very young. (daughter, age 2; son, age 3).
5. People that interacted with my (young) children were not permitted to use sarcasm when communicating with them or "joke" with them. Young children do not understand sarcasm and "joking around." I allowed them to learn it with their peers at school (which was about 5th/6th grade).
6. My children were taught about all different kinds of religion and they were permitted to choose whichever one they felt suited them best.
--- (My daughter chose Wicca and my son is "spiritual").
My children are well-behaved, graduated with honors (both high school and college), and have successful, blooming careers in their prospective fields. They understand how to play the game without being over-shadowed and consumed by the game. They were trained to be wolves, not sheep.
Although I am proud that they are mine and I approve of them, I do not love them.
In addition, we have explored other scientific characteristics found in psychopathy which enhance the probability of successful social predation, whether overtly violent or not. These include both victim selection as well as social mimicry. Although it is reassuring to view psychopathy as a deficiency, and perhaps a psychopathology that one day will be treatable, there is virtually no evidence to date that it is a disorder for which there is a fix (Meloy and Yakeley 2014), and no positive outcome data concerning treatment of severely psychopathic individuals utilizing randomized controlled trials. It may be instead that psychopathy is a genotype within our species, which is phenotypically expressed to different degrees depending on culture, and confers a genetic advantage. It thus survives, although a survival that is characterized by the mark of Cain, and will continue to do so throughout history. A more clear-eyed view of its adaptive characteristics, especially in the context of predation, may keep others safe.